four years ago i moved to pensacola. since then my life has been a constant series of adjustments. at first i hated this place, but now i've adjusted. now it is my home. i'm rooting for the underdog.
to a certain degree there are many choices we can take that determine our outcome in life, but in the grand scheme of things, we are not even near to being in total control. as proverbs states: a man can plan his course, but the Lord directs his steps. i realize this pretty frequently, perhaps more than most, and at this point i've realized that it's better not to fight it and just adjust. to some it may come across as apathy, but really, i'd just like to avoid anymore worrying than i already do. there's no need to worry about where i'll end up, or when i'm supposed to have kids. God will figure it out. and eventually i'll say "ok, you win. let's see where this adventure takes me."
i'm always discovering my new normal. this is my new normal:
-being a florida resident
-marriage. and all the stuff no one ever told you about it
-a partially demolished master bath
-wondering what in the world my degree means, or if it means anything at all
-retail work schedule
-weekday afternoons at the beach (under a big hat, and usually with a coverup on unless i'm taking a dip because i'm pale and i detest putting on sunscreen)
-working with a bunch of women that are my mom's age...and loving it
-not knowing what my paycheck will be
-(due to the above) days when i am thankful to have a landlord who will hold our rent check for a few days
-the "i wasn't even drunk last night" hangover
-thinking the auburn (or insert football team here) cheerleaders look like babies
-friends with babies. so, so many babies
-being at least 3-6 hours from your family
-realizing that 3-6 hours is a lot further than you thought
whatever it is, or whatever normal looks like for you, it's never what we thought it would be, is it? normal is constantly being redefined. and i'm ok with that.
what is your new normal?
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